If I were a Buddhist, I'd be praying and fasting and trying to be as good as I could be so that I could come back in my next life as a higher form being. My goal would be to be a textile designer. I love fabric, love color. I even love the earthy smell of fabric dye. Sometimes I wrap myself in one of my vintage Indian quilts just to find some peace and comfort. There's nothing more that words can say. Let me just post a photo.