Monday, May 30, 2016

Cook me a fish

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In worship service yesterday, at the end of the sermon, our pastor lead an amazing guided meditation on a passage in Scripture. He recounted the story told in John 21. It is during the period of time after Jesus's death and resurrection. Some of the disciples were fishing when, from the boat, they saw and had a conversation with a man on the shore. It was pre-dawn and the man on the beach was tending a fire, preparing to cook breakfast. The disciples soon realized the man was Jesus. The pastor invited us to enter the scene, to look into Jesus’s face and to hear our conversation.

And today I repeated the exercise at home. I read the passage in John 21 and sat in silence, my eyes closed, waiting to go deeper, to encounter Him.
His face was radiant, glowing in the firelight as the sun began to peek over the horizon. And He was glowing because it had all come to pass and He had conquered death, just as He promised. There was a tender, gentle glow of satisfaction, of knowing that God’s word had been fulfilled, His work was done. Everything, even the suffering and death, was worth it. I just looked at Him and He looked at and into me, knowing everything. And He said to me: “I will be with you until the end of the ages.”
So I just sat with Him, not wanting to leave, afraid that if I opened my eyes He would be gone. And I said to Him, “Lord, would you cook me a fish?”
It was such a profound, deep experience that I hesitate to try to describe it, that it will somehow sully the experience or reduce it to something unexceptional. But I want to share the reality that—whether it’s this passage for you or something else—it is possible to enter a very deep communion with God. I am not doing anything extraordinary, just opening the door and asking Him to be with me. And maybe cook me a fish.


  1. AnonymousJune 09, 2016

    Dear Ms Xander:
    This is so sweet and profound. It soothes my heart. I believe I have read the above post around 20 times, since you first published it.
    I do a similar exercise, mostly when I feel overwhelmed by life events or deeply sad. In those moments, I look at Jesus and ask Him to allow me to touch the edge of His cloak. And He, generously and silently, always gives me permission to do so. This always makes me feel safer...
    Thank you for sharing your experience with us.
    Best wishes ...

  2. Thank you so much. It is such a sweet and profound experience to be able to know this kind of connection with the Lord of the Universe. I never tire of it.